Let me start at the beginning. I almost always pay bills in the first week of the month. We get paid once a month, so I think pay the bills and then we will not spend that money. Some how we are falling short each month. I did not even pay tithing. But something told me to hold off on a lot of the bills. I paid our mortgage and a couple of other important ones. I kept telling Tom it may look like we have money, but we do not. I would list off to him the bills we still needed to pay. We really do need to control our spending.
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5 Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
We have not been content with what we have and now we are suffering for it. What I have been doing is repenting, and asking God to step in. Also many, many discussions with Tom. Showing him the financial situation we are in. Talking to him about focusing one day a week at most for shopping. He is an extrovert and loves to go out and shop. For me I like to stay in and shop online. But if we are going to survive here we need to turn to the Lord more. We need to be content with what He has given us.
I mean really if you came to our house you would think we actually had money. Tom brought with him two large tv’s, we own our house, a pig, a bunny rabbit, a cat, computers, and various electronics. Our kitchen is full of food and we have an air conditioner. It is not like we are hurting terribly. I always look at my life and think? How do I deserve all this good stuff? What did I do to own such things? My life has been one bad decision after another, Tom’s life has not been much better. But it has always seemed that God has provided where we do not deserve.
11 If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!
So, lets go back to our bills this month. Well, very early this morning I woke up at 3 am and got a strong sense that I needed to get up and study my Bible class. Well when I open my computer Facebook automatically comes up. A post from a woman who seemed to be hurting deeply financially came up. Her family story sounded so familiar. I could feel her pain, her anxiety for her kids. God told me to send her some money. I prayed, I posted comment under her post. I then opened messenger and thought I will only send 5 dollars, but no! God kept moving the amount up! I got to where He wanted me to and I sent her the money through FB Pay. Her and I are now connected on FB. God blesses those who are generous and help carry their burdens! Now I do not want to brag about what I did, I want to brag about what God did!
Later in the day God told me it is time to take care of those bills that you delayed paying. I planned on calling the companies and seeing what I can do to pay them off slowly. Well I went to see how much we had in the checking right then. I was surprised! It was not a lot, but it was enough to pay off all but one bill! We got our tax refund from the state! It was like God knew I needed to step back, listen to Him and then He would show me how He can care for us too.
This is just one small step for me to get out of my fear of not having enough for our family. Seeing how God blessed us right after I was obedient to Him. Thank you God so much. Show me my next step to honor you!